octopus mama

i bought myself this necklace last fall. in part because my favorite s.f. style maven had one that i secretly coveted and in part because i see it as a wonderful mother image. to be a mother is to hold everything- literally and figuratively- and sometimes it does require nearly 8 arms. anyway, i wore it until i gave birth to mateo- i then took it off during labor because it felt restrictive. it has been 10 months since i have worn this necklace and today for some reason i put it on. i thought a lot about why i was putting it on and i think it is because i am finally starting to get my mothering groove back. i am feeling more and more capable of "holding" all that i need to. and my octopus necklace is a symbol of that.