i'm not sure how i became so naive- or better yet, i am not sure how i remained so naive for so many of my years on this planet. the past 4 months have taken me to places i knew not existed inside of me. and while they are places i hope to never have to visit again, what i do know from having visited them, is a whole new level of compassion for myself, my family, for my friends, for perfect strangers. the realness of "you never really know what anyone is going through at any given time" in emblazoned in my heart. i hope it stays because i do believe it is allowing me to meet life with much more empathy and a more open heart. life is hard- it is that simple. and life is also beautiful and it too is that simple.
as i find my way out of this darkness, i feel the great fortune of having two beautiful and healthy children, a supportive husband, a family that loves us all unconditionally, and a magnitude of friends near and far. and this, all of this, is more than i EVER could have hoped for. it surmounts any material possession, professional acclaim, or travel experience i could ever have. family & friends, now that is the good stuff. that is the real stuff. and in the end all you will ever take with you. so i am working on cultivating beautiful memories with the ones i love because as far as i can see all the rest pales in comparison.
and now, i will resume my blog on a much more frequent basis- this unexpected haitis lasted a bit too long.
