"being a kid is best"

this is what miss p. tells me. she also tells me that she never wants to grow up- she wants to be a kid forever and to live with us for the rest of her days. how glorious to be the receiver of such a gift of love. surely these remarks mean that she loves us infinitely.

d. and i were chatting late the other night after finishing the movie "united 93". not necessarily a movie i would recommend to the faint at heart but one that certainly opens your eyes to the wild emotions and experience of those on flight 93 on that dreadful day of 9/11. at any rate, it prompted us to discuss how we both currently feel a bit detached from the world at large since neither of us is really listening to any news since there are generally little ears around. i used to be an avid npr listener while in the car, but now that i hardly ever drive anywhere without chiquita in the car with me, i choose to keep it to music or nothing at all. i want to protect her innocent, happy consciousness--not bog it down with the issues of today's world. in her mind, everything is just right and as it should be. her ignorance IS bliss and i want it to be that way for her. not because i do not want her to evolve in to a person who takes interest in the world and appreciates it for all the good and bad combined, but because i am not sure when it is appropriate to penetrate her ideal world and let the real world in. sometimes i too want to live in that ideal world. i'm not ready for her to grow up- i too want her to live with us for the rest of her days.